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ForAshton Kutcher, the time surrounding the release of his exDemi Moore’s 2019 memoir was not easy.

Speaking withEsquirefor a digital cover interview, theYour Place or Mineactor, 44, admitted he was “f—ing pissed” when the tell-all book,Inside Out, was released, due to the attention it put on him and his family.

“I’d finally gotten to a place where the press had really laid off me and [wifeMila Kunis], and my life and my family. And then the next day, [the paparazzi] are at my kids' school,” Kutcher said.

But despite his issues with the media circus,he harbors no ill will toward Moore, 60.

“I don’t want to open anything up in that realm,” Kutcher said.

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Moore and Kutcher began dating in 2003 after meeting at a dinner with mutual friends,and were marriedin 2005. Theyfinalized their divorcein 2013, aftersplitting two years earlier.

Among the claims in theG.I. Janeactress’s memoir was one that her ex-husbandquestioned whether alcoholism was realor not, and thathe cheated on hermultiple times. (Reps for Kutcher did not respond to PEOPLE’s requests for comment about said claims at the time of the book’s publication.)

“He is busy with a full life and has moved on,” added the insider.

Ashton Kutcher on the cover ofEsquire.Billy Kidd

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Addressing when his relationship with Moore became public in 2003, Kutcher toldEsquirein his cover profile, “The moment that information broke, my life changed.”

But, theRanchstar allowed, “It’s stupid to complain about things that you’re contributing to,” referring to his own involvement in the social-media circus surrounding his and Moore’s romance.

He also recalled the negative feelings he had about himself following the split, explaining, “Nothing makes youfeel like a failure like divorce.”

“Divorce feels like a wholesale f—ing failure. You failed atmarriage,” Kutcher added.

The actor latertied the knotwith hisThat ’70s Showcostar Kunis, 39, in 2015. The pair share two children: daughterWyatt, 8, and sonDimitri, 6.

source: people.com