Sidney Poitierwas like a father figure toHalle Berry.

Poitier, whodiedon Thursday at the age of 94, made history as the first Black man to win an Oscar for Best Actor when he was recognized forLilies of the Fieldon April 13, 1964. In anemotional essay forVariety, Berry, 55, pays tribute to Poitier, remembering how she admired him since she was little.

“As imperfect as my dad was, as deep of a wedge as his fury drove between us, I loved him, missed him, longed to have him close,” she wrote about her dad, adding that she was 4 when he and her mom broke up as he struggled with alcoholism. “In my mind’s eye, and in my father’s absence, Sidney epitomized what a man should be: unflappable and courageous, eloquent and proud, charming and handsome. He even physically resembled my father.”

Berry eventually met Poitier while doing research for her role as Dorothy Dandridge in the 1999 HBO movieIntroducing Dorothy Dandridge. She became speechless finally meeting her “idol” after respecting him “from afar” for so long.

“As I concluded my rambling speech I looked up and saw dear Sidney, high in the balcony seemingly with a halo surrounding him, looking over me as a proud father would,” said Berry. “Our paths had crossed all those years earlier when I, wide-eyed and frizzy-headed, watched him in awe from my living-room sofa.”

Halle Berry winning the Oscar in 2002.TIMOTHY A. CLARY/AFP via Getty

Halle Berry Oscar win

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“Decades later in that arena, our lives became inextricably connected — he, the first Black man to garner a leading-man Oscar, and I, the first Black woman to accomplish the same in my category,” continued Berry. “I was as tongue-tied in that moment as I was when I’d initially met him, as moved as I still am when I watch his films.”

TheBruisedactress/director haspreviously opened up about her fatherJerome Jesse Berry, who died in 2003.

“There’s lots of abuse in my childhood. I grew up with an alcoholic father that was very abusive, both verbally, emotionally, physically,” Berry said onNPR’sFresh Airpodcastin December, adding, “When he died, I was given a gift of talking to a spiritual healer and someone that took me through some spiritual exercises to sort of heal my wound with my dad.”

“Looking at it that way, I’m full of love for him,” she concluded.

Halle Berry and Sidney Poitier in 2006.A Berliner/BEI/Shutterstock

Halle Berry and Sidney Poitier

On Friday, Berryreactedto news of Poitier’s deathon Instagram, celebrating him for “paving the way” in Hollywood.

“My dear Sidney, an enormous part of my soul weeps at your passing. In your ninety-four years on this planet, you left an indelible mark with your extraordinary talent, paving the way for Black people to be seen and heard in the fullness of who we are,” wrote Berry. “You were an iconic trailblazer; yours was a life well lived.”

“I grew up idolizing you and will always remember the day when I first met you. It is the only time in my life when I’ve been rendered speechless!” she continued. “There I sat, with my words glued together, and you were as gracious and charming then as you would be during our decades of friendship to follow.”

Added Berry, “Rest in peace, beloved Sidney. You are and always will be the true measure of a man.”

source: people.com