John Stamosnever envisioned his marriage toRebecca Romijnwould implode the way it did.In his upcoming memoir,If You Would Have Told Me, out Oct. 24, theFull Housealum candidly shares the ups and downs of his love story with Romijn, 50, along with the aftermath oftheir early 2000s divorce.“My first marriage was shattering to me. I was shattered for way too long, too,” Stamos, 60, exclusively tells PEOPLE in this week’s issue. “I mean, a year, okay, good. But it went on [for] years and years.“Stamos says it was “really difficult” to write the chapters centered around the pair’s former marriage, especially as he had to reflect on his feelings at the time.“In my mind back then, she was the Devil, and I just hated her,” he admits. “I couldn’t believe how much I hated her, and it ruined my life.” He continues to explain that back then, “one of the steps in AA, the fourth step, is you lay out all your grievances, everything that people did to you. And then I said, ‘Oh, she did this, she did that, blah, blah, she did blah, blah.’ And then my sponsor goes, ‘Now what part did you play in that?’ And I go, like, ‘None.'“But theBig Shotactor eventually recognized he had “some part” in his first marriage’s demise after his sponsor pressed him further. “You start thinking, it’s like, ‘Oh, she wasn’t the Devil. Maybe I was as much to blame as her.'“Jeff LipskyFrom his perspective, Stamos — who hasn’t seen Romijn since their joint meeting with their divorce attorneys — felt his now ex-wife “was trying to make it work because she cared” about him before they eventually split.“It was very public, and that was very painful. I didn’t write much about that, but it’s hard,” he says.(L-R) Rebecca Romijn and John Stamos are pictured.Paul Archuleta/Getty, Allen Berezovsky/FilmMagic"It was very much the opinion that she dumped me because her career was going great and mine wasn’t, and that’s humiliating,” he continues. “I don’t blame her for it. It was just the perception that people took, and maybe they weren’t wrong. She was doing great at that time and I wasn’t.“Never miss a story — sign up forPEOPLE’s free daily newsletterto stay up-to-date on the best of what PEOPLE has to offer, from juicy celebrity news to compelling human interest stories.John Stamos’ memoir, ‘If You Would Have Told Me’, is pictured.Jeff LipskyStamos feels his healing process “was not healthy.““That’s when I reallystarted to kind of drink a lot,” he recalls. “But without that, I never would’ve known what a real love is, and I would’ve never straightened up to get someone like Caitlin in my life.“Stamos marriedCaitlin McHugh Stamosin 2018. They are now parents to 5-year-old sonBilly. Meanwhile, Romijn nowshares two childrenwith now-husbandJerry O’Connell,whomshe wedin 2007.(L-R) John Stamos, Billy Stamos and Caitlin McHugh Stamos are pictured.John Stamos/Instagram"If I didn’t go through all the things, all the heartache,” theScream Queensalum says, “I wouldn’t be who I am today. That’s what I hope people take away from it.“John Stamos’ memoir,If You Would Have Told Me,is available Oct. 24 wherever books are sold.For more on John Stamos, pick up the latest issue of PEOPLE, on newsstands everywhere Friday, or subscribehere.
John Stamosnever envisioned his marriage toRebecca Romijnwould implode the way it did.
In his upcoming memoir,If You Would Have Told Me, out Oct. 24, theFull Housealum candidly shares the ups and downs of his love story with Romijn, 50, along with the aftermath oftheir early 2000s divorce.
“My first marriage was shattering to me. I was shattered for way too long, too,” Stamos, 60, exclusively tells PEOPLE in this week’s issue. “I mean, a year, okay, good. But it went on [for] years and years.”
Stamos says it was “really difficult” to write the chapters centered around the pair’s former marriage, especially as he had to reflect on his feelings at the time.
“In my mind back then, she was the Devil, and I just hated her,” he admits. “I couldn’t believe how much I hated her, and it ruined my life.” He continues to explain that back then, “one of the steps in AA, the fourth step, is you lay out all your grievances, everything that people did to you. And then I said, ‘Oh, she did this, she did that, blah, blah, she did blah, blah.’ And then my sponsor goes, ‘Now what part did you play in that?’ And I go, like, ‘None.'”
But theBig Shotactor eventually recognized he had “some part” in his first marriage’s demise after his sponsor pressed him further. “You start thinking, it’s like, ‘Oh, she wasn’t the Devil. Maybe I was as much to blame as her.'”
Jeff Lipsky
From his perspective, Stamos — who hasn’t seen Romijn since their joint meeting with their divorce attorneys — felt his now ex-wife “was trying to make it work because she cared” about him before they eventually split.
“It was very public, and that was very painful. I didn’t write much about that, but it’s hard,” he says.
(L-R) Rebecca Romijn and John Stamos are pictured.Paul Archuleta/Getty, Allen Berezovsky/FilmMagic
“It was very much the opinion that she dumped me because her career was going great and mine wasn’t, and that’s humiliating,” he continues. “I don’t blame her for it. It was just the perception that people took, and maybe they weren’t wrong. She was doing great at that time and I wasn’t.”
Never miss a story — sign up forPEOPLE’s free daily newsletterto stay up-to-date on the best of what PEOPLE has to offer, from juicy celebrity news to compelling human interest stories.
John Stamos’ memoir, ‘If You Would Have Told Me’, is pictured.Jeff Lipsky
Stamos feels his healing process “was not healthy.”
“That’s when I reallystarted to kind of drink a lot,” he recalls. “But without that, I never would’ve known what a real love is, and I would’ve never straightened up to get someone like Caitlin in my life.”
Stamos marriedCaitlin McHugh Stamosin 2018. They are now parents to 5-year-old sonBilly. Meanwhile, Romijn nowshares two childrenwith now-husbandJerry O’Connell,whomshe wedin 2007.
(L-R) John Stamos, Billy Stamos and Caitlin McHugh Stamos are pictured.John Stamos/Instagram
John Stamos/Instagram
“If I didn’t go through all the things, all the heartache,” theScream Queensalum says, “I wouldn’t be who I am today. That’s what I hope people take away from it.”
John Stamos’ memoir,If You Would Have Told Me,is available Oct. 24 wherever books are sold.
For more on John Stamos, pick up the latest issue of PEOPLE, on newsstands everywhere Friday, or subscribehere.
source: people.com
