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Michelle Williamshasn’t seenThe Fabelmans— or any of the dozen-plus movies she has appeared in over the last decade.
In an interview withThe New York Timespublished Wednesday, Williams, 42, mentioned that she still has not seenSteven Spielberg’s autobiographical movie, in which she stars as a fictional version of 76-year-old Spielberg’s mother.
“I’m not able to watch my own work,” the actress said. “I think the last thing I saw was Meek’s Cutoffin a theater with my daughter, so it’s been about a decade.”
Meek’s Cutoffreleased in 2010, so Williams has not seen any of the some 15 movies she has appeared in over the last 13 years, which includes herAcademy Award-nominated performances in 2011’sMy Week with Marilynand 2016’sManchester By the Sea.
“When I’m working on something, I feel so completely inside of it, and when I switch to an audience member, it alters my experience — and the experience is ultimately what I’m in it for,” Williams toldThe Timeswhen asked why she chooses not to watch her own movies.
The actress went on to explain that she “can’t seem to go back and forth between the two ways to be involved in storytelling,” though she said she “would like to be strong enough and capable of watching myself” in order to review her technique in each performance.
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“I’ve tried to do that, but I’m getting internal bounce-back,” Williams told the outlet. “I’m happier and maybe healthier just staying in my personal experience of playing these women.”
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Asked whether her tendency to avoid her own movies affected her when she wrapping filmingThe Fabelmans, Williams said she “grieved like somebody had actually died” during her last day on set.
Elsewhere in the interview, Williams, who isnominated for a Golden Globe for best actress in a dramafor her role inThe Fabelmansin the upcoming awards ceremony, praised her character as “an artist in every fingertip.”
“There was creativity in every aspect of her life, from how she played with the children to how she dressed herself and cut her hair,” she toldThe Times.
The Fabelmansreceived five total nominations for the Golden Globes, including nods for best picture (drama), best director, best screenplay and best original score.
source: people.com
